... I'm adding on to my list

DEAR DIARY; taking over Anne's house

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 09:36:53 GMT

Dear Diary
Guess what? Been up since before 10am. Yes, me, seriously. Work starts around 13.45 so now I'm just hanging at Anne's till I gotta go. Went shopping today together; lots of food and alcohol 'cause we're gonna have some friends over (though they're supposed to bring their own stuff, but you know, still) :D Note how I say 'we' though it's Anne's place, haha. Satu, my childhood friend who lives nowadays in Jyväskylä is gonna come here on Friday and party with us. Same goes for a few of Anne's friends. It's the midsummer feast thing and I decided a long time ago that we're not gonna sit home alone... so, yeah, we're gonna party. Only our fifth weekend in a row... I'm broke soon if I keep this up. But I dun really care. Life is. We're gonna go to Joutsenlampi (hotel, a bar, disco - whatever) and they say there's gonna be a bonfire too. Ooooh ^^; And that was pretty much it, I think?

DEAR DIARY; sunny side (of a rainy day)

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 16:35:29 GMT

Dear Diary
I made a fool outta myself today at work in front of Ritva but hey, mistakes happen. Especially when I'm one the phone and there are three kids talking to you at the same time...

Dear Diary
Satu is gonna buy us tickets in a few days (hopefully there will still be some left, eh) and we're gonna go see DISTURBED next month. Guess how freakin' excited I am?! GUESS?!

Dear Diary
Anne went shopping today 'cause she's on a holiday. Anyway, she bought me a few (green, mwuahahah) things that I asked for. Plus something that I didn't... Made my rainy day soooo much better.

A tiny lil vacation...

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 17:40:31 GMT

I'm at Anne's since she invited me over - to eat, of course. Anyway, the thing is, I have no internet connection at the moment and THAT'S the reason I haven't been around. I have no idea when I'll be getting that connection so till I do, I'm not gonna be around pretty much at all... Well, I guess a break won't hurt me -- it means I have time to read and clean and do stuff, eh. It's spring and everything anyways. But I do miss you guys! And my phone works just fine, as does my email. I'll try and check that one every now and then (thank higher powers for Anne ;)) Anyways, as said, MISS YOU!

tag-problem is a big problem!

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 20:13:37 GMT

I suppose I'm a freak. But. The fact my tags are all messed up and in so obvious disorder... it mentally kills me. Seriously. So I'm thinking I'll remove all my tags and slowly {slowly being a keyword, here} go through all my stupid journal entries and redo them. Because I really don't want to make a new journal or anything. I guess I've changed and now I want my tags to change, too. Also, for weeks now I've wanted to change my layout but why the hell can I NOT find the kind of layout I want?! Why are all the higher powers against me, huh?

I am the guy to break the law for you.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 17:16:54 GMT

Been watching FRINGE here... all caught up now :) And been thinking while at it... You know what I love and hate about it? Besides Joshua Jackson, obviously, I love that the series is so much like ALIAS, the same feel and everything. Even with all the unusual crap, it still feels a lot more real than your regular FBI/CIA series. Let's face it; I'm an action junkie, eh?

But at the same time, I hate the fact it's so much like Alias, because we've already been through those plot twists. In many ways Olivia is like a copy of Sydney, both physically (the fact she's blond doesn't change a thing) and mentally it would seem. They're the kind of character we know will fight till the end, they won't give up, and most likely, they won't crack, either. Not until you threaten someone they love, that is.

I kind of wish Olivia would be different. Sydney had her flaws and I want Olivia to have her own share of her own flaws.

There are a few little things that make it better for me, though I find it weird that they do; but yeah, most of the time Olivia's hair looks normal - it gets dirty and messy and every lock of hair isn't always in place. That's life. Also, she wears her hair in a ponytail, like Sydney did, which is awesome because I don't think real agents would run around and fight with long hair flying around their shoulders (if they do, they have to be pretty stupid). It'd be too damn easy for the enemy to grab that hair, you know? Why the hell would a brilliant agent give that kind of advantage to the bad guy? Or any kind of advantage, really. The fact she wears her hair like that, I love it, but the fact it again makes me think of Sydney is annoying. I wish I could forget the other show when watching this one instead of comparing 24/7.

The scene in 1x11; bound where Olivia is being held captive for a few pretty seconds? The waking up, the lights, the masked villain and the whole deal? Oh, lookie, A TOTAL SYDNEY MOMENT right there. Because seriously, only Sydney Bristow would be kidnapped by a dozen of guys (you know she's good, 5 wouldn't simply do it) tied up and cut open/experimented on. Only Sydney Bristow, and Olivia apparently, can make a puppy face like that when begging for water.

Of course, I don't know what the deal is or how important Olivia may be --- could be she isn't, at all --- but the fact alone that I constantly keep expecting her long lost father {apparently we got a sister... dunno about how bad ass villain she'll be, though x____x - I wasn't convinced by the "no there's nothing else" reply...} to jump into the scene as a bad ass villain is somewhat frustrating. Maybe Sydney ends up being her twin sister. Could happen. It wouldn't be the first time two series cross each other over... if Angel and Buffy can do it, Fringe and Alias can too, damnit.

Some Peter ♥ Olivia action would make me happy. Yeah, I know, she loved that stupid John Scott or something and she needs time or whatever, but freakin' hell, woman. It's Joshua Jackson! Jump him! That's an order! I mean, come on? Olivia went, who cares about me? and he? "I care about you." Walter's face told it all, the explanation Peter gave totally wasn't what he meant -__-. He totally agrees with me; they should just do it. In the previous episode, he even offered to give them a bed and that is a clear sign as far as I can tell. The same kind of sign was his smile after he tells Peter 'she's beautiful' and Peter, who's not that easily tricked asks 'who?' The slug *rolls eyes* Pft. WE KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY MEANT, WALTER. And; "Peter was very worried about you when you were gone." I'm just saying, Walter is such a Peter/Olivia shipper (I bet he wants grandchildren). I love him.

What I don't love is Astrid, though. I don't like Olivia's sister that much, either. I'm thinking it's nothing but my protective gene kicking in, kinda like with Cam in Bones... it also could be that I'm simply way too paranoid, but eh, who the hell cares?

Yeah. I should probably get a life of my own, right?

I'm sorry, John.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 16:11:22 GMT

I just watched THE SARAH CONNOR CHRONICLES finale and BOOYAH, I loved it so much that I might cry. Which is why a little happy ramble and a dance are both completely needed right now. I shall do the dance in a minute, but first... Let's ramble.

I'M SO FREAKIN' HAPPY!!! I mean I was totally fine with Derek's death 'cause as I ranted the last time, it was getting rather boring with him messing everything up like that and I think I was also hoping they'd actually find a way to bring him back (I had a hunch, is all) ... and now... now I'm extra happy. Because he got a second chance to do it all right.

Even Kyle seemed hot, that's how happy I was. I'm also extremely glad the half truth about Weaver was finally revealed to John, too, because I'm pretty sure the whole audience has been aware of the fact Weaver's not out there to kill the Resistance, or John. If she'd wanted to, she could've done it a several episodes ago, so. I always get annoyed by the kind of plots where the audience knows the truth but the characters don't because you're always tempted to scream at the screen "noooooo youuuuu stuuuuupid liiiittleee biiiiitch, he's trying to help youuuuuu" or like, "nooooooooo, go awaaaaaay, heeeee's the kiiiiillleer" and then people start laughing at me and it's humiliating. So, yeah, glad now.

All these time lines are confusing me though. I can't remember every single detail or what we know of our characters pasts and futures -- in this case our Derek's past, yes, the one who died, his is what I'm curious about... I should rewatch the whole damn series, I suppose, just to get it all right.

Mainly the question in my mind is; is this how it happened in our Derek's past, too. Because you know, the way Derek told John in the first season about his 30th birthay "drunk as a skunk" or however it went, even then I felt there was something Derek didn't tell. Like he lied, or left something unsaid. Young John Connor appeared out of nowhere and became famous (we was never shown what age or how old he is in the future flashes). The kind where he can become independent without his mother around and then take the lead ^^; What, I want my John Connor to lead the Resistance. It's his job goddamned.

Or... We know of two time lines, right? Is this yet a new time line where John ended up? Is it possible he simply created a new time line with his jump? Because he jumped, they've never heard of John Connor before (but have they heard of Sarah Connor? I mean, come on, after all that hard work it's evil if John is the only reason she's been remembered and acknowledged. Give the woman some credit, with or without John, 'kay?). But still, he ends up taking the lead and being the leader he was always meant to be.

It's like he can't escape his fate, no matter how hard he'd try. I know they've been trying to stop the Judgment Day, but lately, everything John has done and said has given me the vibe that he's already accepted the fact the war will start and his role. I mean, the scene with Jesse? That was John fucking Connor. He went after his mother though she said no? "Yeah, bad John Connor! Ground me!" Remember how in the beginning I was whining about the fact John was more like Baum than he was Connor? I love the fact we've seen the change. Which, I suppose, was the idea of this series anyways but it didn't stop it from being annoying then.

What about Jesse (do we get her back, do we? do we?) and the whole 'will you join us?' deal. (Oh and, when Jesse wanted to meet future!John and instead, she only got to meet Cameron, did John refuse to meet her because he knew she'd kill Riley? O__õ See, this is how my mind works? Completely incoherent.)

Was Weaver created in the past or in the future or, what the fuck? Is THIS Weaver the same that Jesse encountered, or just another time line version of her? How do you put all these happenings to a freakin' time line and make them fit?! Did John first (in the future) ask the question, Weaver said no, then she figured what the hell, went back in time and what, asked Cameron in the past? Assuming they're the same, that is. O__O This IS IMPOSSIBLE. I'm getting NOWHERE. Someone please tell me how it happened, haha.

No wonder the writers originally fucked up T3. Who the fuck can keep track of these things, seriously?! Gosh, I need to know who's lived through what and in which order has these things been happening, damnit! I'm not smart enough, obviously.

I'm not sure how I feel about Allison, though. But John's face when he realized the dogs weren't barking and that she was being humane, oh my god. That hurt. That must have hurt him, too. I mean he goes there hoping to find her chip and lookie, what he finds is just the original version of her body. That must get confusing for him, too. And painful.

I'm so confused that I'm not even making sense anymore, haha. I love it.

But seeing as it'll get canceled anyway, 'cause that stupid network always does this shit to us... oh well... I won't get my hopes up. I guess fan fic writers our there are gonna have to do their jobs if it happens. Fan fictional Season 3 of TSCC would probably be better, anyways. Sometimes it feels like us fan girls know better how the series should go anyways *laughs*

BUT MY GODS I wish it'll get another season! It has to get another season! You can't give us naked John and Cam/John vibes and Allison and the goddamned Reese boys, TOGETHER, and then cancel a show! That would be mean and cruel and evil and totally unaccepted.

sometimes obsession is the only thing you can breathe

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 14:23:16 GMT

Um. It's been forever since the last time I even mentioned a tv series, right? I figure that error needs to be corrected so, a smallish SARAH CONNOR CHRONICLES and BONES rant ahead here... They're basically the only shows I've had time to watch (besides SUPERNATURAL of course) and weirdly, I haven't had much to say... until now. I still don't have much to say, heh, but just a few simple thoughts :)

Let's begin with SCC. Everyone knows I love/d Derek, but weirdly this whole Derek-killed-thing just doesn't bother me that much... I think what I loved more than Derek was what he could've been to the show --- I feel as if the writers gave him such potential and then failed completely. I loved what he was in the beginning. He was willing to do anything for John, to die for him --- he had character... and yet somehow he ends up screwing everything up because of Jesse? Because of A woman? No.

As weird as it may be, the reason I admire Sarah Connor is because she's devoted her life to keeping John alive. To protect him. She does not do it for the future, she does it for John. Derek is supposed to do it for the future, sure, but it doesn't change the fact he's supposed to do everything for John. Am I being crazy? Am I making sense? Yes, I know I'm talking about a tv show and that these people actually aren't real, heh.

Back to the show --- I understand he fell in love, perhaps the writers tried to make him more human, maybe they realized they'd run out of stories with him, that he was becoming useless --- but I don't accept it. The writers could've gotten so much out of him, so many different sort of plots. I didn't need him to be more human. I didn't want that.

What I wanted Derek to be was a soldier, John's soldier; the kind who'd know better. I loved and hated Jesse, I loved the fact she was willing to do whatever it took... I just don't fancy the way she did it seeing as I liked Riley. And I hated her for hurting John, because I love John (a side note; he's just been turning hotter and hotter and hotter and hotter with every episode. MY GOD, the scene with him and Jesse? I think I might have drooled... that's the John Connor I want to see; the future leader, the one who knows he can do it). I think I probably love John more than I ever loved Derek, actually... I've loved the idea of John Connor ever since Terminator 2, though, so I've had years to fall in love. That's one deep love, dude, I can tell you for a fact. What is it with me and tortured souls?

But oh well... {One of these days I'll probably end up being Jesse/John shipper or something... future!John/Jesse would be... interesting... do not let me continue this thought!!!}

Anyway, the point is that as much as I did not want Derek to die, maybe it was the right time considering the show as a whole? Maybe that's what it needed, I dunno.

At first I was shocked by how he was killed, shot just like that, no warnings... but then... that's the way it is. That's life. He's a soldier and he died like one. I keep wishing they'll send another Derek from another time line to help John out because if there's many possible time lines, and since Jesse and Derek obviously didn't come from the same one, then maybe fate can screw time up and give us another Derek. Better one. I'm practically begging. Please, please, please give me another Derek! Or at least be Taylor to our Ridge, 'kay?

Also. I love John Henry, I like Savannah, I dig Miss Weaver... but I still hate Ellison. I can't help it. I feel like though he means well, he always ends up screwing things up for John somehow and I don't like it much. So, yeah, there you go. The good thing is I've started to care for Cameron more. She's finally moving something in me and I love that.

Moving onto BONES then... Naturally I'm still waiting for Bones and Booth to realize they belong together, but whatever. I'm thinking this show might be one of those where the pairing I like is never ever becoming an actual couple... some stupid writers like to keep us in pain. It's also an excellent way to keep us watching because we're foolish and we keep hoping, wishing, waiting. If not in this episode, then maybe in the next? Or the next? Or the next. I can't stop watching. I have to know.

But that's not what I wanted to rant about. It's not Angela and Hodgings *swoon* either (though everyone knows they are freakin' hot together and should just be together, damnit!) --- it's Cam. Remember how in the beginning I didn't like her simply because she was a clear threat to Bones/Booth? It was frustrating enough to watch those without a third person to fuck it all up...

I carried that hatred towards her for a long, long time and then somewhere along the way it turned into indifference. I kinda didn't care. But this last episode, the one with her offering to take in Michelle... that melted the ice. Of course, I knew from the beginning of the episode that it would go to that, or I hoped anyway, but the fact it happened made me forgive Cam. I like her now. I've always been entertained by her quips and comments; not to mention her facial expressions which I find quite amusing. I guess she quietly grew on me. Also? Where is Ryan Cartwright, damnit? Where is my beloved Vincent Nigel-Murray? I love that dude. Seriously. He makes me laugh.

Now I shall go back to playing Sims. Because, um, I love it? Go ahead; roll your eyes and laugh at me. That's what Anne did, too *snorts^^;

on se nyt saatana.

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 23:46:59 GMT

AAAARGH! Fucking hell, dude! You could try telling me the truth, 'kay?

Or just kill me, why don't you? Go ahead. I don't mind.

Because even that, it'd probably be more pleasant than feeling this goddamn insecure all the freakin' time. I'm such a wussy.

Also, I'm running out of ideas here. Yeah, I'm almost missing those barstools right now.

What happens to a soul when
It's trapped inside his emotions
And all of these words he's spoken
They bind him to the life he's left behind
And every new step he takes
He knows that he might not make it
To all of these dreams that he has yet to find
3 DOORS DOWN; PAGES

wOOt.

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 16:31:33 GMT

I got off work already though I was supposed to have a late-night shift! YAY! So, I used my time well and went shopping with Anne; I bought a hair straightener. The very first of a kind and now I'm so very happy! I've never owned one, or felt the need to own one, but for two weeks now I've been dying to get one and I'm not sure why. But I screwed 'why' and went and got one today for 35 euros. Ah, I'm such a money waster ^^; The next thing I'm gonna buy is iPod for the simple reason that I want one and I figure I need to buy it now while I'm still working so that when I'm poor and penniless, at least I'll have my iPod. So yeah, that's the next thing I shall buy. I'd give anything to get green one, but I don't think I'll have enough time to hunt for one since I wanna get it before the trip to Spain. Which reminds me... I shouldn't be on computer right now. I haven't gone through today's chapter yet and I'm still two chapters behind so, yeah, tengo que ir ahora... hasta luego!

a challenge {you lie, pictures don't}

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 01:03:13 GMT

RULES
You're absolutely not allowed to clean or edit or modify or alter your room/flat to make it look better 'cause that'd be cheating!
Take a picture of
01. Your bed
02. Your bathroom
~~03. Your pet~~ don't have one and I'm too tired to improvise
04. Your plant/s
05. Your nightstand
06. Your DVDs
07. Your books
08. One of your paintings/posters
09. Whatever is beside your bed
10. Your calendar
11. Your wardrobe
12. The shoes you're using
13. The jacket/coat you're using
14. The insides of your fridge
15. Your kitchen
16. Your choice?

MY BED

Four pillows (one sheep pillowcase, by the way) and two blankets :)

MY BATHROOM

The elephant was bought by Tiiu for me, as a valentine's present - she figured it would help me remember my plant/s (I had two, then) need some water from time to time.

MY PLANT

Have only one and it's poor and sad and probably dying 'cause I'm not good with, you know, living things. But this little sucker has been brave and persistent and I luv it. Don't ask me what it is, though. A plant?

MY NIGHTSTAND

Also the place where I store some of my books and the stuff I use nearly every day :) And look at the time! That damn number has been haunting me ever since Alias!!

MY DVDs

Next to the plant on my window-whatever. I just put them there today before I went to mom's actually so they're not even in the right order yet. Yes, that's a picture of Tiiu. I've had that for... yeaaaars and I still love it, even though it's pink ^^; Some of my DVDs are on my bookshelf, btw.

MY BOOKS

My old schoolbooks and most of my Roberts collection + games and Alias boxes :)

Yes, there indeed is another round of books behind the ones you see XD

ONE OF MY PAINTINGS/POSTERS

I still don't have any paintings or posters on the walls, but I do have that one framed poster thingie waiting.

WHATEVER IS BESIDE MY BED

Well, basically you saw it already, but I just wanted to show the puzzle we made with grams oncer - she framed it for me :)

MY CALENDAR

MY WARDROBE

... yes. It honestly looks like that. I know, I'm horrid! But I still have no real light in the hall so whenever I come home in the dark I can barely see! So that's why I can never find anything or put anything where it belongs. I'm still waiting for that one guy to come and fix the whole damn thing. I REALLY want my flat with working lights, eh.

THE SHOES I'M USING

The black ones at work, mostly (the bag is full of my laundry, waiting for Mom to come and pick them up). Other than that, the green ones :)

THE JACKET/COAT I'M USING

XD

THE INSIDES OF MY FRIDGE

UM. The eggs, one of the milk things, yogurt, the salad and cucumber = old. Others I can still eat and drink x___x --- and see, my cheese is HIDING, mwuahah!!

MY KITCHEN

I haven't been home that much for two weeks... can you guess why it's all nothing but piles?!?!?!

MY CHOICE

My TV! I love it! It rotates!

Can you guess my favorite color? ;)

DEAR DIARY {dime la verdad}

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 00:36:10 GMT

Dear Diary
They may not all speak the same language, but I think being idiots is a universal thing when it comes to males. I just don't get it. How is it that they can be so freakin' clueless, at times? Seriously? As in, if I speak to you, I expect an answer and then again, if I haven't answered your phone calls for nearly two years? --- What makes you think I'd start picking up now?

Dear Diary
I don't wanna go to bed because I know I'll have to get up in the morning and go to work before our little get-together. I'm gonna spend my day alone with a freaking 5-year-old. Though, I totally like being with this particular boy so it's all good, in a way... I'll probably take him out with me and we'll go try our new sleds. And next time I'll take him skating, or something, because he never gets to go with his sisters. They are a bit older and go alone and their mom won't let him go with them, obviously, and can't be bothered to go along. So, yeah.

Dear Diary
I bought loads of alcohol today and didn't even get asked for IDs XD I'm so happy about that 'cause apparently I look like such a kid that I *never* even get in anywhere without my papers. We're gonna party with the girls, at A's place tomorrow :) Sorta like a birthday-party for me and A 'cause her birthday is next month. So, yeah. Anyways. That's that.

Dear Diary
YO@facebook. Tù?

0_o

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 08:31:42 GMT

Falling asleep has been a huuuuuge issue lately... Once again. It's like whenever my head hits the pillow and I close my eyes, my mind starts this goddamned race and I just can't calm down. Not mentally, not physically.

I've tried music, I've tried reading, I've tried taking walks a few hours before going to bed, I've tried hot chocolate, warm milk, socks, etc. I'm running out of ideas, seriously. And the annoying thing is that even if I do manage to fall asleep, I often wake up every two hours. One night it was 3.33 then 5.55 and the next night 4.44 and while it amused me, it so was not funny. Waking up every other hour also means that in the end I "sleep" around the clock because I feel physically tired all the time --- sometimes I quite accidentally sleep over 17 hours. On those days it's no wonder I can't fall asleep and there you go; a vicious circle. I can't seem to break it. I haven't slept yet and I'm thinking I won't, either. Hopefully that way I'll fall asleep tonight out of sheer exhaustion. Hey, if that's what works for Dean Winchester in my fan fic then it might work with me too, right? Yeah, logical.

Damn. I wish it was 11am already because I don't wanna call mom and wake her up yet --- 10am is too freakin' early for the both of us and I really, really, really wanna call her and tell her about the freaky msn thing. Then again, it's not like she could complain if I did call her. Receiving "are you up?" messages from her around 4am when she needs someone to talk to is nothing new. And I wish it was noon already because I figured it's safe enough to start cleaning then. I need to do something and this place needs to be cleaned up. My suitcase is still lying in the middle of my place. I haven't even unpacked yet...

Well, neither has Mom. We always take our sweet time with that one. Hah, I just remembered something that made me laugh. Nah, just an image of Tiiu tripping over Mom's suitcase and falling on her face. Well, okay, not very cool of me to be amused by that but it was somewhat hilarious when it happened.

Anyways. My brains? Not. functioning. properly. Need sleep and food and water and wait, what's that one thing called? Oh, right, yeah. SENSE.

Ooooh, Tiiu's online. Must stalk her to stalk Mom.

oh, an IDEA. I'll go at Anne's (she's baking anyways, so, MWUAHAHAHA)! Hasta luego, lovers.

:: a pairing, a character or a threesome?

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 03:58:30 GMT

1. Comment in this post with a pairing, a character, or a threesome.
2. I shall write you back a large(ish) paragraph explaining what I think about it (good, bad, indifferent) and why.
3. Let's argue about it -- or, either, rather, can we just debate? That's more my liking.
4. There's no rule saying you can't tell me to comment on a pairing/character/threesome that I've already commented on -- my opinion may have changed, after all ;)

Ginger & Brigitte, Brigitte/Tyler, Dean/Faith, Jeremy/Tara, Pyro/Rogue for lilhobbit
Ares/Xena for ladykate63
Sam for obsessivated
THOSE ABOVE I've commented on HERE

{everything, everything is magic}

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 23:49:22 GMT

Today I once again hate being me. I was supposed to wake up early and do this and that and blah blah but guess what? I'm sick! Mom's flu was seriously amusing but only till it hit me. Not cool. On the other hand, since I had no work today and I felt lazy (as in, didn't wanna get up from bed), I simply slept and then studied some español. Yeah. As I said before, if last year was dedicated to me, this year will be dedicated to learning stuff. Like, a) learn to love yourself some more (you did good last year, but you can do it better), b) learn spanish. That's about it XD

Oh, and, Enhorabuena, untold_story ^^;

... someone added me to his/her msn. I dunno who, but the so called title/name of this person is in spanish. Now I wanna know who, obviously.

so many people, so many problems

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 01:05:54 GMT

Second batch :)

Mostly because I love her pictures but partly because I don't want to go to bed.

Is it weird I don't want tomorrow to come? It's peaceful now, dun want all the drama and rush.

Anyways.

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THE END {for now}.

Anyways, so. MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! *hugs!*

and she says it's the land of confusion

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 01:01:46 GMT

Once again, pictures by my little sister, also known as liltiiu (I gave her that nickname a long time ago and weirdly she's used it ever since... such a freak). I feel the need to point out that I have not edited the colors that much at all; it's all her doing! I simply cleared some of the winter pictures, is all.

Also, you know, it's something I really, really love about her pictures - the way she uses colors (I'm not sure if I should actually compliment her or the camera XD). If some of the pictures are repeats of things I've already posted, I'm sorry! I've got so many folders on my computer filled with pictures she's taken that it's no wonder if I've somehow magically messed them up. It's funny how almost all the pictures are always taken at grams - I think Tiiu especially adores the old wooden table grams has had in their front yard for as long as I can remember.

31 PICTURES by LIL TIIU

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I have to tell you. This is by far the biggest frog I've ever seen - we were walking home one night with Tiiu when I almost stepped on something. After second look (in the dark!), I realised the thing was moving... after we realised what the damn thing was, I told Tiiu to take out her cam and she did ^^;

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She's obsessive over two things: her hair and her shoes.

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SECOND batch will follow!

oooh, happy days

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 06:28:56 GMT

If Whedon is a god, then J.J. Abrams *must* be his second in command. Or possibly his co-partner, really. From my point of view (because am I or am I not the girl who owns all seasons of Alias?) anyways.

Extra points for having Joshua Jackson rock my world once again. How I missed that, seriously.

Now I'm content. After I get back from the dentist, I'll squee some more.

SO BE IT.

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 23:02:33 GMT

BLOOD TIES ended *so* wrong. If there are no decent fics in the world, I will be very mad.

another lost soul, believer

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 17:16:26 GMT

I'm off to work in a few minutes or so, but godamnit, while I'm gone -- someone write, find or breed some good Sylar/Elle smut fics, 'kay? That's a damn order.

Sigh. When I come back I intend to watch more Heroes, then possibly kick my own ass and get started on F's request (Sylar&/Elle icons, surprisingly so *sarcastic face*). GAH. I swear if they kill Elle or something, I will NEVER watch that show again. EVER. Yes, I am very serious about this, dude.

Yeah. Work. Going now, I swear! It's weird, the place is across the street and somehow I always (always!) manage to be late. I don't understand it, really.

what you deserve

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 15:04:58 GMT

Just watched HEROES 3X09 and now I'm... stunned. And glad, sort of. Mostly glad. The series has been losing its color ever since the first season but I'm thinking we're slowly getting somewhere with this. 3x08 was just beautiful; I think it managed to tie up some loose ends nicely and I always appreciate that. If only they killed Mohinder sometime soon. Then it'd be even more beautiful.

I like the actor, I do, but my gods his character irritates me. I'm not sure why, though. Usually I like flawed characters and he's definitely one. I think... I think I don't like him because I don't find him loyal. I mean, it's like in Serenity, you know? Book tells Mal that it doesn't matter what he believes in, just that he believes - I guess I've always felt as if Mohinder isn't willing to die for what he believes (Peter totally would. Matt too!) -- in fact, I always feel as if Mohinder doesn't actually believe in anything, like he had no real opinions. He just goes with the flow. I don't connect with him, can't relate at all. I wish he'd pick a side and stay on it, instead of switching from side to side. I'm not sure why I feel that... I just dunno.

Anyways, the main of subject of this little ramble was supposed to be Gabriel... but since I love saying Sylar, I shall keep calling him Sylar, MWUAHAHA. You know how I loved Sylar in the beginning - when he was still twisted and dark and evil... and then ended up disliking him for a while there for some reason?

I think it's actually got something to do with the last rant of mine. At some point I felt like they, the makers of the show, were suddenly trying to justify Sylar's actions because of course no one can be evil just because they're, you know, evil and twisted. I kinda liked thinking Sylar's a psychotic murderer and doesn't have any issues with it.

So, in my head, they suddenly turned him a softie after making us believe something else and I hated that. Now I kinda dig him again. A lot. Even though all his actions have been tried to "justify" to make him less of a cold-blooded murderer and more of a human being -- as if those two couldn't be one and same. They always are.

He's still sort of a softie, I suppose, and there are some things that I still can't stand (like that whole future ep... as if Sylar could, after everything he's been through, be like that - A fucking teddy bear *snort*) but somehow his character has started to interest me again and no, it's NOT only because of Elle. Or because he looks so freakin' hot shirtless. Though I admit, some nicely written Sylar/Elle (in a cell) porn would totally make me happy right now.

Um, yeah. I should probably quote River now because I'm not sure if I had a point at all. I never know what I'm saying, not anymore, I don't.

GO HOME, little girl!

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 02:45:55 GMT

In the beautiful realm of Firefly/Serenity fan fics? Oh, such horror (and pain) can be found and experienced that I just feel lost and helpless now.

"Takes place post-BDM when River is 18 and no longer mentally ill. domme!River/Mal"

Dear Author? I'm thinking, YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG. 'Cause see, a summary like that makes me wanna go yell at someone. You, especially. Why is that? Reread the line, please and ignore the whole domme!River (don't even get me started on that one, 'kay?), focus on the bits before that. YES, you got it --- NO LONGER MENTALLY ILL? Are you out of your fucking mind?

I think the problem here is that to me, that kind of line clearly suggests that while you may love Summer and Nathan and enjoy them having random sex or whatever, you clearly have absolutely no respect or real love towards the series, the movie, characters or most importantly, the character that is essentially River.

I mean, come on. No longer mentally ill? River isn't mentally ill, just a little... off. Or wait, is that the smell of my pathetic excuse? Well, I guess it is. But that does. not. matter. I'm just saying, if you take all that away, then what is she left with?

I'll tell you: just Summer's hot pretty little body, me thinks. If you want to write Summer porn, that's fine and pretty, but it doesn't make me feel any better. So, yes, dear author (who hopefully never finds out about my rant, eh), I think you're doing it wrong. In the end, I don't care what the fic is about, if it's smut or not, or if it's even good. I don't care if River is a hot little dominatrix (and you know, really, I'm thinking Mal might have his own opinion about that one, too) or whatever. Because guess what?! With that kind of summary I won't even bother reading! Yeah.

I want my River mentally ill, thank you very much, I want her broken and beaten and damaged. Because seriously, isn't that exactly what makes River such an interesting (twisted, broken, magical, fragile, strong, CONFLICTED?) and special character to both write and read (and watch!?)?

OR WAIT. Could this be because you suck as a writer and couldn't write River the way she deserves to be written so you just take it all away? I hope it's that. Or that you at least bothered to explain in the fic HOW she got better because you always have to justify a change like that, even if it's just porn.

And why the fuck do you feel the need to mention she's over 18? Oh, right, because River having sex with Mal would be oh so completely dirty and ugly and horrible if she wasn't of age, is that it? Oh. Well, see, now you just killed it for me, completely.

FINE. I understand that not all the fics in the world can be same or even similar and they really shouldn't be, either, because that's what the world of fan fiction is all about. They are meant to be different and blah blah blah blah blah. But personally whenever the fic aims to make River normal in a way that kind of *kills* the character, it just waters it down for me. In fact, I react to it exactly the same way as I react to the very first Rogue/Pyro fic I ever wrote, in which Rogue had learned to control her power. I react with much dislike, that is. If I was to rewrite that fic now, I'd never have her learn to control her nifty little curse because NOT being able to control it, herself, is what makes Rogue Rogue. That's why she takes the cure in the movie, right?

Oh well, I guess I shouldn't judge - I'm sure some people would wanna kill me for having Rogue take the cure in my fics seeing as that also takes something away from her, but then, wait, WHAT IS IT, THAT WORD I'M THINKING OF?

Right, right! That's it. CANON, bitch!

Now, hopefully I didn't offend anyone. I didn't mean to. I'm just annoyed because I can never find the kind of fics I wanna read. I'm off to bed now, done with useless ranting. Yeah.

DEAR DIARY {and reach out your hand, and I'll make you mine}

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 01:32:49 GMT

Dear Diary
All full now. Apparently Anne was having one of those delicious mother-syndrome-days of hers because she invited me over and had me eat dinner and candy and cookies and cupcakes. And coffee. And now I'm so damn FULL, seriously. Yep, she's a great cook ^^; Actually, she was exactly the same last Christmas, always making delicious stuff but never wanting to eat it herself (she can be really strict when it comes to her own eating, at times). I don't mind at all, though. Mwuahahah!

Dear Diary
Blade: Trinity has eaten a piece of my soul. A huge piece. I think I've watched it way too many times... or, really, I've watched all the Hannibal scenes way too many times... somehow him getting his ass kicked by Danica seems to, um, tickle me? Might have something to do with his set of abs, too and -- uh, yeah, let's leave it at that. I'd kill for good Danica/King smut, you know. Also, as weird as it is, I do love the idea of Hannibal King and Abigail sharing a bed (that's me saying it nicely 'cause really, the bed might as well be a table or a wall or whatever) too, but for some reason NO ONE in this whole freakin' world has written the kind of fic I'd want to read. Why does this always happen to me? Why do I always go for the kind of fics no one has bothered to write yet? It's annoying.

Dear Diary
About Blood Ties then? Now, goddamnit, how freakin' hot is it when Vicki lets Henry feed on her? I mean the kind of situations where his (un)life doesn't actually depend on it in which case it's all "oh you can have my wrist because otherwise you'll die!!! *angst angst*" --- but it's like Henry asking, "do you mind?" and she goes like, "ah, okay, fine, go ahead and have a bite, dude, here's my neck!" (fine, she didn't actually say those words but she might as well have *pouts*) --- Anyways, yes: SO. FREAKIN'. HOT. Also, her fab line, "You ended the world for me 'cause you believed I can bring it back." AWWWWWW, such a shipper moment! I nearly died and went to heaven right there and then because come on! Why can't she just go for it, damnit?! Which reminds me. I wonder if there are any good Henry/Vicki fics out there. You know, as surprising it is, I actually love Mike (but that's 'cause we share a history with Dylan... see, I was a fan of the Bold and the Beautiful once *grins* PLUS. Who didn't love him in Dawson's Creek, HUH?!?! I know I did.) so I really don't wanna read any Mike-bashing-fics, eh. But yeah, I shall try and keep myself from reading any fan fics at all till I've actually watched all the episodes. Don't wanna be spoiled, so to speak. Not that I'd have any high hopes or anything, but just, don't wanna know beforehand, is all. But it's me we're talking about and therefore I'm not sure if I can resist the temptation long enough. I'm such a sucker.

Dear Diary
I suddenly started missing Blade 1 & 2, Deacon Frost especially, Lestat's leather pants and Underwold movies in general. I wonder what that's all about, eh?

THE JOHNS {dirty?}

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 01:26:48 GMT

First of all... I love Keanu Reeves and I love Christian Bale. I love Bale even more because he shares a birthday with me... though not the same year, heh. Anyway, so, yeah, I wasn't gonna let this bother me but my gods, it's driving me nuts. I'm watching Equilibrium and for a moment there, I closed my eyes ('cause, hello, tired?) and damn, I swear it was the voice of John Constantine speaking there, all dark and broody and lovely. Instead, it was John Preston.

Also... funny how they're all called John. I mean, come on, every movie and series, they're always called John. Anyways. That's all.

(This movie's fighting scenes KICK ass!)

DEAR DIARY {when the storm brings rain, snow fate of all kinds}

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:06:16 GMT

Aww crap. Apparently the snow storms are gonna reach us tomorrow and I really don't want them to 'cause I like it the way it is; white and calm and peaceful and more importantly, not too cold. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love our seasons and I even like snow (when it's not wet and cold and killing me with its sharp flakes) but there is such a thing as TOO MUCH snow. The thing is, I've got work tomorrow - till 9pm so if it's gonna be all snow storm tomorrow, then we ain't getting out with the kids and with these two kids some outside time would really do us all some good and keep me from, I dunno, strangling them? Anyway.

I wish it wasn't over 20 hours till my next Blood Ties, *sigh* -- I really wanna see s1 finale because, well, you know (despite the fact it'll probably make me cry or something). Vicki? Henry? *giggles insanely* I'm such a fan girl, I know, but I can't help it. I really do love Henry and his smile ("best feature" mwuahahaha!). Um. Yeah.

Tiiu just stopped by; wanted to borrow a movie or a game or something, ended up taking nothing... except my trash. I begged. And begged. And begged. The thing with Tiiu is that she's the kind of person who can never say no if you beg long enough. Or even if you don't beg because she feels guilty if she doesn't do what you ask her to (which also makes me feel guilty sometimes, but I figure little sisters are here for a reason, right?). Nah, seriously, she's wonderful and she's got the biggest heart ever and I think she's got this some sort of inbuilt-helping-device. I'm not sure whether it's just when it comes to me or people in general (I think it's that one) but I do love her for it. Even when her heart gets her in trouble. I think I love her even more, then. Anyway, yeah.

Now I'm gonna go watch some Nora Roberts movie that's coming on TV. I find those movies surprisingly entertaining though the books are always better.

I've had headache for three days now. It's this damn computer - my shoulders, neck, back - all aching and hurting and crying and so the question is... WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL ON COMPUTER, HUH?!?! IDIOT.

DEAR DIARY {and the boys went down with a gun in their hand}

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 18:58:50 GMT

Dear Diary
So. I'm so freakin' excited about the return of Doctor Who (despite everything) that I'm thinking I might have dreamt the whole thing.

Dear Diary
I started watchig True Blood but then I got bored with it (I expected a lot from the show and then it started being too predictable which made me sad) and switched to Blood Ties (I know what you're thinking, not predictable at all, eh *snickers*) which tells you how immature I really am and what kind of crap floats my boat. I'm gonna keep watching TB, though, just not right now... these two shows are like copies of each other with the difference that in BT we have hot, cute vampire who'd I'd bed rather than the one in TB. So, yeah. I have some issues, yes, we all knew that.

Dear Diary
I also have a new music obsession and I'm thinking I should probably be ashamed of myself or something. Ever since seeing them on OTH, I've been listening to Angels and Airwaves and nothing but. I'll show you. syrainator@last.fm -- SERIOUSLY, what does those statics tell you (I feel bad for Dekker)? Number one favs at the moment would be Secret Crowds because the lyrics hit me and Call to Arms because there's just something about this song... love how it begins.

Dear Diary
Terminator: the sarah connor chronicles, I'd like to thank you for getting better. I'd like to thank you for making Cameron more interesting (I love Summer, but Cameron just didn't do it for me that much in the first season), thank you for having Sarah feel and break down like a normal person, thank you for making John slowly grow up to be the man he's supposed to be, thank you for not killing Derek off. Now, if only you could give him and Sarah more screen time together (the nice amount of ZERO in the last one did not make me happy), then I'd be even more thankful.

Dear Diary
I bought four DVDS. Juno because I wanted to watch something funny and I'd wanted to see it for a long time, Blade: Trinity because there was Ryan Reynolds looking super-hot and kicking ass, The Covenant because I needed something with no decent plot, just some guys and random ass-kicking + Kyle Schmid (if only for few seconds, heh) and my favorite of them all; Jumper because a) Hayden Christensen? I'd seen the trailer for it two days before and it made me squee and bounce and I figured it means I simply have to get it.

Dear Diary
My little sister has finally fallen for Disturbed. Next mission is yet to be decided.

Dear Diary
Yesterday when I woke up and went to my balcony, the world looked like this and it made me think of goblie so I had to take a picture.